Ugh.
This paper is due in about 13 hours. Go, go, go!
Additionally, happy 21st birthday to my best friend, Sarah! Love you boo ♥
Enjoy this acapella version of Natalie Imbruglia's "Torn" here.
Off to work!
Thursday, May 6, 2010
no surprises.
It's wonderful leaving a paper to the last minute, especially thinking that it'd be an easy 5-7 pages, only to find out that you need to write 8-10 pages. Having to come with 8-10 pages of words when I feel as though I have nothing to say is just about the most daunting feeling in the world.
Ugh.
This paper is due in about 13 hours. Go, go, go!
***
Additionally, happy 21st birthday to my best friend, Sarah! Love you boo ♥
***
Enjoy this acapella version of Natalie Imbruglia's "Torn" here.
Off to work!
Ugh.
This paper is due in about 13 hours. Go, go, go!
Additionally, happy 21st birthday to my best friend, Sarah! Love you boo ♥
Enjoy this acapella version of Natalie Imbruglia's "Torn" here.
Off to work!
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
house of cards.
Finals aren't that bad this semester. However, that didn't stop me from getting a (large) vanilla latte so I could attempt to work on the 5-7 page paper final for my Atomic Age class that's due on Friday that I haven't started...even though I haven't had actual coffee to drink in months. Oops. Except that I'm not as awake as I need to be, and so I'm going to bed as soon as the clock strikes midnight and I wish my best friend a happy 21st birthday.
I'm totally in love with this shirt, by the way. Not only does it remind me of the 80s in the best way possible, I got it for super cheap at the Gap. Hooray for sales!
Actually...now that I think about it, I actually have a lot to do, and should thus be worried. Crap.
Finals checklist as of today:
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*5-7 page final paper for Atomic Age class, due Friday
*Take-home final for Journalism class, due Monday
*Study for First Amendment and the Press final, test next Wednesday
That doesn't sound too bad...except that next Tuesday, I start my LSAT class! It's going to be intense. I'm kind of dreading it/kind of looking forward to it. I got an email that my books had shipped, they should get here by Saturday...and that they weigh 13 pounds. THIRTEEN POUNDS WORTH OF STUDYING?! oh goodness. Not to mention that I have the pressure of having to actually do well/care about all my finals. LAME. I just want to go sleep on Memorial Glade...is that too much to ask for?
I'm falling asleep. I just drank an entire large vanilla latte and I'm falling asleep. This is ridiculous. Finals are ridiculous. This semester has been ridiculous...ridiculously AWESOME.
I clearly don't know what I'm saying anymore, but I'm guessing this will be used to mark my fall from sanity. Oh, Berkeley..look what you do to me!
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
moving on.
As the semester winds down, I find myself looking back and re-evaluating the past four months. Turned in my last paper of the semester today, so that's why I look like a hot mess. Naptime, here I come! I honestly can't believe that tomorrow is my last day of class! It's ridiculous how quickly this semester went by; I can't believe I'm almost done with my first year at Cal. As much as I'm going to miss being in LA over the summer, I'm really glad I get the opportunity to spend the summer up in Berkeley and the Bay Area. I think it'll be really good for me.
I keep thinking about everything that's happened since the end of fall semester. Going to Israel, meeting some of my closest friends in Berkeley, taking some of my favorite classes at Cal, getting really involved in CalTV, going through some of the most difficult times up here, breaking up with you-know-who, getting closer with my family, deciding to give law school a shot, writing more often, taking more pictures, eating amazing food, listening to a lot more Simon & Garfunkel, my first Seder away from home, cooking more often, studying at Sacks, obsessing over Cheeseboard, etc etc. It wasn't an easy semester by any means; there were a lot of ups and downs. I made some of the toughest decisions of my life, but lately I keep getting reminded of how I've made the best choices possible. No regrets at all. And honestly, I'm the happiest I've ever been, which I didn't think I'd be saying anytime soon. I've got the best friends in the world, both in LA and in Berkeley, and I'm studying what I love and I'm just doing really, really well. It's been an amazing semester on so many levels, and I can't wait to see what's in store. I've still got to get through finals and the LSAT before summer can really start, but I'm excited regardless. Hooray for making it through another semester, I cannot believe I only have two more before I *gulp* graduate...crazy!
Sunday, April 25, 2010
oh my golly!
Picture post! I know you all love these :)
Water fight!
Don't mess with me, I may be small but I'm scrappy!
***
Cheeseboard with Johnny! And yes, we ate all of that...so amazing.
Pistachio gelato and sunshine, what could be better?
***
Yesterday I spent the day in San Francisco with Katie! We met up with Misha, and at lunch at The Grove. It was absolutely delicious!
Iced tea...aka the BEST ICED TEA OF MY LIFE. No joke!
Cheese omelet, toast, and some of the best hash browns I've ever had...they had rosemary in them and were amazing. I'm going to have to attempt to make some like that!
Me and Katie! :)
In terms of eating and shopping, yesterday was a total success. It was one of those days were I magically found everything I could want, and it all happened to be on sale, and I happened to have some money. AMAZING. That hasn't happened in...ever, I think. It was exciting! And now I have lots of cute outfits for all sorts of occasions, haha. It definitely makes studying for finals better when I know I don't look like a total mess!
***
"God Only Knows" by the Beach Boys...I always forget how much I love this song.
Water fight!
Don't mess with me, I may be small but I'm scrappy!
***
Cheeseboard with Johnny! And yes, we ate all of that...so amazing.
Pistachio gelato and sunshine, what could be better?
***
Yesterday I spent the day in San Francisco with Katie! We met up with Misha, and at lunch at The Grove. It was absolutely delicious!
Iced tea...aka the BEST ICED TEA OF MY LIFE. No joke!
Cheese omelet, toast, and some of the best hash browns I've ever had...they had rosemary in them and were amazing. I'm going to have to attempt to make some like that!
Me and Katie! :)
In terms of eating and shopping, yesterday was a total success. It was one of those days were I magically found everything I could want, and it all happened to be on sale, and I happened to have some money. AMAZING. That hasn't happened in...ever, I think. It was exciting! And now I have lots of cute outfits for all sorts of occasions, haha. It definitely makes studying for finals better when I know I don't look like a total mess!
***
"God Only Knows" by the Beach Boys...I always forget how much I love this song.
Friday, April 23, 2010
all the small things.
I was all set to write a huge post yesterday looking back, but of course it was the one day this week that I wasn't home at ALL. It was one of the best days I've had at Berkeley--class, a waterfight on Memorial Glade with CalTV people, talking to a professor about a paper I'm excited to write (on Harold and Maude!), Cheeseboard, gelato, and the movies! I was exhausted (I was out from 8am-10pm) but it was so worth it.
This morning, I woke up and had an unexpected email in my inbox.
***
LOVE! from self :D
Dear FutureMe,
april 23, 2009. the night before i find out about ucla, the night before my life changes. a week before i find out about berkeley, my dream school.
right now, it's 5:11 on a thursday afternoon. i locked my keys in my car today, and my friend (preny, from scholars, remember her?) had to drive me home to get my spare and then take me back to school. i have a russian history and a spanish midterm tomorrow, and i'm freaking out. and ucla starts to announce tomorrow...and berkeley next week... god, i really hope i end up going to berkeley, it's all i've ever wanted.
a year from now, i don't know where i'll be...but hopefully happy and satisfied with life. wherever i end up...remember that i'm good and smart and kind and there's so much more to life than school.
i'm single right now, perhaps i won't be a year from now. that's weird to think about, but who knows?
remember,
things happen for a reason, even if it takes time to figure it out. i never wanted to go to gcc but i did and it was the best decision of my life.
love yourself!
love,
yourself ;)
***
There's this website, called FutureMe.org, where you can write an email to yourself and have it sent to your inbox a year or more from now. I had totally forgotten that I had ever even heard of this site, until I got the email this morning.
It's funny to read. I remember how nervous I was, how I couldn't eat or sleep or study. I started my blog! And the first entry was about how nervous I was about waiting for UCLA to announce their results. I got into UCLA, and was ecstatic; finally, things seemed to be going my way. The week waiting for Berkeley to announce was the longest, most excruciating week of my life, especially because I knew the day and the time they were going to post. That day, I was a mess. I remember I went to the doctor's that day, and that was the only thing that really distracted me. I remember coming home, grabbing my laptop, and going to the living room. "Mom," I said, "it's time. And I really don't want to look." My mother reminded me that I had to check, and no matter if I had gotten into Cal or not, I had made her the proudest mother in the world. There was the frantic turning on of the computer, fumbling over the keyboard as I typed in the all-too familiar website with the information that would change my life. I remember reading the word "Congratulations" and not being able to breathe and starting to cry, despite myself. I had gotten into my dream school, I had done it, and every hardship that I went through to get there had been validated in an instant.
It's been a year, and I can definitely say that I'm happier than I've ever been, as well as satisfied with my life. It's a year later, and I just signed up for an LSAT class and I'm getting ready for life post-college. It's so weird to think that it's only been a year since coming to Berkeley, it honestly feels like a lifetime. I still think I'm a good person (though let's be honest, I'm biased), and I'm pretty smart, and yes, there IS so much more to life than school! Something I have to remind myself frequently, but it's an undeniable truth.
As far as being single, yeah, still am. But within this past year I was in my first serious relationship, and I fell head over heels. We were together for a large part of that year, but it's over now. That's still weird to think about, but I grew up so much and am a better person for everything I went through. Funny how I would have never predicted it, though...funny how life works sometimes.
Things really do happen for a reason, that's something I've always believed. Everything comes together and falls into place and it's that thought that gets me through the hard days and sleepless nights. Everything will be okay in the end, and I'm a better person for not always having it easy (though again, I've got to say I've got some of the most amazing things going on in my life and as "stressful" as my life is, I'm really lucky to be in school studying something I love). I've gone through a lot, but that's the point--I've gotten through it, and I'm okay.
Love yourself--trust me, I'm trying. It's a lifelong process, but I'm learning.
I'd definitely suggest sending yourself an email, see how much things change for you in a year. It's a good feeling to look back, and to see how much you've grown. It put a smile on my face and it's going to make enjoying this lovely day in the northern California sunshine that much better.
Happy birthday, blog! And congratulations on a good year, self, here's to many, many more. Cheers!
This morning, I woke up and had an unexpected email in my inbox.
***
LOVE! from self :D
Dear FutureMe,
april 23, 2009. the night before i find out about ucla, the night before my life changes. a week before i find out about berkeley, my dream school.
right now, it's 5:11 on a thursday afternoon. i locked my keys in my car today, and my friend (preny, from scholars, remember her?) had to drive me home to get my spare and then take me back to school. i have a russian history and a spanish midterm tomorrow, and i'm freaking out. and ucla starts to announce tomorrow...and berkeley next week... god, i really hope i end up going to berkeley, it's all i've ever wanted.
a year from now, i don't know where i'll be...but hopefully happy and satisfied with life. wherever i end up...remember that i'm good and smart and kind and there's so much more to life than school.
i'm single right now, perhaps i won't be a year from now. that's weird to think about, but who knows?
remember,
things happen for a reason, even if it takes time to figure it out. i never wanted to go to gcc but i did and it was the best decision of my life.
love yourself!
love,
yourself ;)
***
There's this website, called FutureMe.org, where you can write an email to yourself and have it sent to your inbox a year or more from now. I had totally forgotten that I had ever even heard of this site, until I got the email this morning.
It's funny to read. I remember how nervous I was, how I couldn't eat or sleep or study. I started my blog! And the first entry was about how nervous I was about waiting for UCLA to announce their results. I got into UCLA, and was ecstatic; finally, things seemed to be going my way. The week waiting for Berkeley to announce was the longest, most excruciating week of my life, especially because I knew the day and the time they were going to post. That day, I was a mess. I remember I went to the doctor's that day, and that was the only thing that really distracted me. I remember coming home, grabbing my laptop, and going to the living room. "Mom," I said, "it's time. And I really don't want to look." My mother reminded me that I had to check, and no matter if I had gotten into Cal or not, I had made her the proudest mother in the world. There was the frantic turning on of the computer, fumbling over the keyboard as I typed in the all-too familiar website with the information that would change my life. I remember reading the word "Congratulations" and not being able to breathe and starting to cry, despite myself. I had gotten into my dream school, I had done it, and every hardship that I went through to get there had been validated in an instant.
It's been a year, and I can definitely say that I'm happier than I've ever been, as well as satisfied with my life. It's a year later, and I just signed up for an LSAT class and I'm getting ready for life post-college. It's so weird to think that it's only been a year since coming to Berkeley, it honestly feels like a lifetime. I still think I'm a good person (though let's be honest, I'm biased), and I'm pretty smart, and yes, there IS so much more to life than school! Something I have to remind myself frequently, but it's an undeniable truth.
As far as being single, yeah, still am. But within this past year I was in my first serious relationship, and I fell head over heels. We were together for a large part of that year, but it's over now. That's still weird to think about, but I grew up so much and am a better person for everything I went through. Funny how I would have never predicted it, though...funny how life works sometimes.
Things really do happen for a reason, that's something I've always believed. Everything comes together and falls into place and it's that thought that gets me through the hard days and sleepless nights. Everything will be okay in the end, and I'm a better person for not always having it easy (though again, I've got to say I've got some of the most amazing things going on in my life and as "stressful" as my life is, I'm really lucky to be in school studying something I love). I've gone through a lot, but that's the point--I've gotten through it, and I'm okay.
Love yourself--trust me, I'm trying. It's a lifelong process, but I'm learning.
I'd definitely suggest sending yourself an email, see how much things change for you in a year. It's a good feeling to look back, and to see how much you've grown. It put a smile on my face and it's going to make enjoying this lovely day in the northern California sunshine that much better.
Happy birthday, blog! And congratulations on a good year, self, here's to many, many more. Cheers!
Thursday, April 22, 2010
merry unbirthday!
I've had my blog for one year. Absolutely ridiculous.
Thanks to everyone who reads this, I really appreciate it.
Thanks to everyone who reads this, I really appreciate it.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
cal day 2010.
Here's my weekend in a nutshell--writing, Cal Day, dinner, writing. Enjoy :)
I've been working on my First Amendment & the press paper all weekend. So intense.
***
Around 3:30 I headed to Memorial Glade to see the Cold War Kids concert that started at 4; they went on at 4:30. They played on the steps of Doe Library -- it was so cool! They were here to ~celebrate the end of Global Outreach Week, which the ASUC put on to try and inform students of issues across the globe.
In case you hadn't heard of the Cold War Kids, here's their most famous song, "Hang Me Up To Dry."
Don't waste plastic bags!
COLD WAR KIDS.
Damn the tall people that kept getting in the way of my pictures. Hi, I'm barely 5'2", LET ME IN FRONT OF YOU. Goddamn.
This is a video from the show that I found on Youtube. The show itself was...well, it was mediocre. They're talented musicians (I've seen them play before), but there didn't seem to be any passion behind the music when they played yesterday. They came, they played, they left. Their set was also disappointingly short, no more than about nine songs. That's not a concert, that's an opening act on a bad night. I don't know, on the one hand it was nice to hear live music, and great that we had a band that people had actually heard of come play, but it just wasn't a mind-blowing show. It was fun though, and I met up with an old friend there which was really great!
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I made mac & cheese from scratch for dinner!
***
If you haven't already, meet my camera/best friend/other half, C.J. Brownie points if you know where her name comes from!
***
Back to writing, I'm determined to finish this paper tonight!
I've been working on my First Amendment & the press paper all weekend. So intense.
***
Around 3:30 I headed to Memorial Glade to see the Cold War Kids concert that started at 4; they went on at 4:30. They played on the steps of Doe Library -- it was so cool! They were here to ~celebrate the end of Global Outreach Week, which the ASUC put on to try and inform students of issues across the globe.
In case you hadn't heard of the Cold War Kids, here's their most famous song, "Hang Me Up To Dry."
Don't waste plastic bags!
COLD WAR KIDS.
Damn the tall people that kept getting in the way of my pictures. Hi, I'm barely 5'2", LET ME IN FRONT OF YOU. Goddamn.
This is a video from the show that I found on Youtube. The show itself was...well, it was mediocre. They're talented musicians (I've seen them play before), but there didn't seem to be any passion behind the music when they played yesterday. They came, they played, they left. Their set was also disappointingly short, no more than about nine songs. That's not a concert, that's an opening act on a bad night. I don't know, on the one hand it was nice to hear live music, and great that we had a band that people had actually heard of come play, but it just wasn't a mind-blowing show. It was fun though, and I met up with an old friend there which was really great!
***
I made mac & cheese from scratch for dinner!
***
If you haven't already, meet my camera/best friend/other half, C.J. Brownie points if you know where her name comes from!
***
Back to writing, I'm determined to finish this paper tonight!
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